“Life is about using the whole box of crayons.” – RuPaul
I was the kid that had to draw in the lines. That had to make a realistic looking picture. Why would an elephant be yellow anyways?
If I was using markers that got darker the more you layered them I would fill in each area with lines, no scribbles allowed. I have brought this mindset into my teenage/adult life as well. It has been equally a blessing and a curse.
Just like with the coloring book it took me at least twice as long as everyone else to fully finish it. Subsequently, it takes me about twice as long as everyone else to finish anything. I have such a perfectionist mindset.
This has equally as many wins as it does losses.
For one my drive to seek perfection has built an extremely strong work ethic. On the other hand, it has built a very present critique. Good enough is never a thought that I have.
Even through all of the ups and the downs. I am happy with where I am at. I would not here today, doing Praxis, already graduated if it weren’t for this force that has been driving me my entire life.